I can’t help but feel lost this Memorial Day. I had just recently had the one year anniversary of my son, Gaje Florence, death.
It wasn’t like most anniversaries since I mourned and dreaded even waking up. I went to the cemetery that day and talked to him for a while. I often do this when I have had a hard day even though some may think that i am crazy.
I miss Gaje and everytime I log into this blog I think about him. I would have never imagined that my life would have or could have changed that quickly. After Gaje died time seemed to fly by but I felt as though I was still standing still.
I try to focus on other things like my writing or blogging but I often find myself thinking of him again.
Anyways today is Memorial Day and it is a time when we are suppose to remember all the soldiers. Today I will clean off my son’s grave and talk to him for a while. After I am done telling him about my day I will place fresh flowers on his grave and cry like i always do. The point of all this is that I thought that life would be easier than this and it was a hard lesson that I learned.
Kiss your kids each time that you see them and tell them how much you love them as often as you can. My son was six when he was killed and you never know when it will be the last time that you hold your child.